Day One Begins …
I started my fast today of negative thoughts. I caught myself several times being critical of others. I made a note of some of the incidents that were running through my head. I’m pretty sure that I do this on a consistent basis everyday but have gotten so used to it that I don’t realize that I’m doing it. A few bible verses came to mind too as I was working out my thoughts.
All I had to do was cruise down Facebook to kick off my feasting on negativity. I saw a post from someone that I used to know years ago. My heart became filled with jealousy, causing me to judge and be critical of others who have things that I want. It brings a feeling of hatred in my heart and I feel a dampening in my head. A physical reaction in my body and my emotions feel dark. Asking for forgiveness lifts the weight in my emotions and in my body/spirit.
Do not be deceived: God cannot be mocked. A man reaps what he sows.
Saw a post on Facebook with another old friend of mine. I felt myself getting snarky and bitter towards them also. I had no reason to feel that way. It was just me being jealous again and in my heart I feared that they were judging me. I was putting them down to protect myself. My only course at this point was to ask God for forgiveness for judging them. Jesus clearly states that if you judge someone that judgment will come back on you. You will reap the very same judgment that you put out. That is exactly what was happening to me. My punishment was coming back on me in the form of a physical reaction and a heavy weight in my heart. I could feel these things happening in my body.
“Do not judge, and you will not be judged. Do not condemn, and you will not be condemned. Forgive, and you will be forgiven.
I was thinking about someone that I had a relationship with once and it didn’t go well. I felt a tinge of anger in my heart and again I felt this in my head as well. I asked God to show me another way to look at this. The response that I got was; be glad you are not in a relationship with this person now. You are released from a life with this person. You can move on.
Keeping with the positive side of things, when you sew in good seeds, positive seeds, you will reap good plants. It works both ways. You will experience health in your body and mind and in your relationships. Life is pretty good already, but, I would love to see more bountiful fruit in my life too .. 🙂